HITLER!

so i guess i have to explain what whitewashed is so.. ill do my best. whitewashed is like calling a black person Oreo except this can work for any race. i supposedly walk talk and act like a white person. sorry for not following the norm, i guess the norm is really my thing. i hope that helped?

there is this Little get together tomorrow that i have to go to cause i need to copy this homework that i have to do over the break. the only problem is that Hitler (the girl who likes me) is ganna b there. also im not having the kick back at my house cause my friend wants to have it at here house. hitler is also ganna be there.

my little annoying cousin is here so i have to be very careful that he doesnt c this blog! the real world is ganna come one tomorrow. i dont really watch that show cause its dumb but i here there is a bisexual jock on there? thats the only reason why im ganna tune in. dallas won on sunday ik im kinda late but now we only have the eagles left! vikings lost yesterday yes! it was a really good game though.

just so u guys know heroes season 4 is ganna b back on monday jan. 4 u guys need to watch it cause it mite get cancelled!idc if u have no idea whats going on i need help in this time of need!its one of like 2 shows i watch (the other is trueblood plus everything on cnn) so it being cancelled would be devastating!

i just wanna show u the angels

u no who u r im sorry. idk y i did that, im not usually like that i just blew up like that...sorry

so i have this addiction problem to heroes season 1. i got it for xmass and i havent stoped watching it since. its so freakin good, i would do anything to have clairs ability. in the very first episode she jumped off a water tower and then stood up and said "ok that was take # 20" i want it so badly!

i grew some balls and told the girl that likes me that i couldt go with her to the movies but then she said ok well what about next week and me being the pussy i am said "yeah sure"flm. speaking of movies i was wanna go c lovely bones but the critics didnt giving it good reviews so im not ganna watchit anymore haha... is that stupid?

oh this is random a couple of days ago someone called me whitewashed...again. if u ever want me to get angry just call me white washed i get so freakin pissed. why does it matter if i have a lot of white friends? ppl r stupid these days.

c u guys later im ganna go watch more heroes!

uncharted

i wasnt ganna post anything today but it was such a gnarly day that i have to write about it! so i invited my friends over today to play some uncharted 2 and they brought over the guy thats hot. i was like yes! we played uncharted for like 3 hours then we started talking about that girl who likes me. and that hot guy (who from now on im ganna call... bob?) was like her face book status is making it seem like u guys r dating. i was like we held hands twice. he was like show us how ill pretend to be u. so i was like scratch ur leg and then i grabbed his wrist and then he grabbed my hand! we held hands for like 3 seconds (those were the bes 3 seconds of my life!). and then i was like the second time she did this weird thing were she would rub my bicep( i rubed his bicep) and put her head on my shoulder (i put my head on his shoulder). he was like u gotta get out of this relationship dude. i was like yeah i no. b4 they Left the convinced me to have a kick-back on new year eve. cant wait.

so i wanna talk more about bob but first i would like to say that i think he is
str8. having said that there r a couple of things... different about him. 1. he is hot yet he has never had a girlfriend, he could be just shy. i have gotten more then he has. a lot of girls like him but he never seems to like any of them. 2. he is touchy feely or like i have feed him some of my orange chicken b4 (yes i did save the fork..jk) it was really homo.3. his closest friends r girls. one of the girls mom called him the gay friend. but he plays sports and acts too str8 to be gay.

i need to get over this dude!

so bored

today i went to in n out because that girl that really likes me was begging me to go and i didnt have the balls to tell her no so i went. this might sounds bad but i didnt want to hold her hand in public so i sat on my hand. i finished my finals today thank jesus! i watched harry potter 6 and i realized that the only 2 girls that i would go st8 for would be hillary clinton and emma watson.

i havent really talked about me so i think i should start describing my chractaristics. i live in a very rual town in california thats very conservitive (thats y i cant come out). no one knows that i am gay. the only person that i would tell when im ready is best friends with the girl that wants me. i have little to no expirence in dating(makes me seem ugly). if anyone ever wants to talk to me just ask (i need ppl to talk to).

position of the day

so i didnt go on sat to that one dudes house cause he had some basketball thing. so i just stayed home and played uncharted 2 for like 2 hours then i watched the cowboys beat the saints YES! If only the cowboys played like this every week. on sunday i went to the mall and finished xmass shopping... nothing to exciting, although i did buy my friend this sex position book. my favorit position so far is called pin the tail on the girlfriend. there is also a great position called the octopussy. i think hes ganna like it. oh and today i just took the first part of my finals. all i have is tomorrow and then im done with first semester.

making love

so i just got back from the avatar movie in 3D it was near epic! not as good as pans labyrinth but still a film everyone should check out. the movie literally jumped out of the screen and made love to me. but the girl that really likes me was holding my hand the whole time. she even put her head on my shoulder. we were basically spooning in the theater. all my friends were there and this fake relationship is heating up...for her. i got to get out of this as soon as i can but what can i say or do to get this chick of my nuts. what happens if she wants to kiss me? not only do i not know how to kiss but its ganna be really awkward for me. fml. oh and im going to the house of that guy that i think is hot from my school, i guess hes having all the guys come over. sausage fest at his house gnarly!

avatar

so this friday im watching avatar with my firends and the girl who really likes me is coming along. ever since last week when we went to the movies she has told everyone about us holding hands. we r now talking and everyone thinks so too.i have no idea what to do! no one knows im gaY so i have to battle this one by myself fml. i cant get that guy out of my head.ik hes not gay yet y cant i just forget about him. dallas cowboys need to stop sucking balls and get better. there ganna get there vaginas whipped when they play the saints uhg.

gayish

idk why im here. im just so depressed cause im gay and i always have to lie to everyone. everything is just getting harder (thats what she said)to deal with. i went to the movies on friday to go see blindside it was alright the story is realy played out. i went with this girl that likes me a lot and shes really pretty an all but but im kida into dudes idk what to do! in the middle of the movie i was scratching my legs and out of no where grabed my wrist flipped it over and held it. holy shit i had no fuckin idea what to do i just went with the flow and grabed it. my heart was ounding and i bet my hands were too sweating. after the movie was done i walked her to her car and pretended to b into her. on sat i went bowling witha group of friends which included the girl that likes me, but the reason i went was for this guy that i have been crushing on for like a year. hes so hot! but hes sraight... well im not sure he might be gay.