Prayers

A friend of mine from undergrad, who was due a week or two after we were, lost her baby. They just had their shower on Sunday, and were 32 weeks along. Please pray for K, her partner, and their family.
Baby Ethan John will forever be loved and missed.

Shorty got low, low, low

Anyway, still low around these parts.
Today is CD16. Last month I got my first High on CD17.
Seems close.
Still waiting patiently.

Still around

Just peeing on things.

I expect a high on the monitor in the next day or so. Then hopefully we will be able to insem on the 3rd, 4th, and 5th day of Highs...then comes the PEAK. Usually by the time I get the Peak, I have already ovulated the night before. We will see how the OPKs read.

B was sick with the flu for a good 5 days. It was not a fun time around this house. She even missed her choir concert at church. Luckily she felt a wee bit better (well enough to get dressed and actually leave the house) to attend the concert. Pretty amazing. Yesterday was her first day back to work and she made it through the whole day. Woo hoo!

Our state testing is finally done (except for make-ups). We have had a ton of children out due to illness in the past two weeks, but attendance seems to be getting back to normal. By the time the vaccines are available, all of my class will have had the bug.

I'm in a bit of an emotional rollercoaster when it comes to reading my blog list. For the women that are due right around Sprout's due date, it is so hard to read, but I anticipated that. For the women that are pregnant in the first trimester, or early second trimester, I cringe every time I see a new post. I am fearful for them. For the newly pregnant ones that are seeing their betas drop (2 on my f-list right now), I am so sad for them. And for those that already have their bundles, I love looking at the picture posts. Such cute children. I can't wait to join the club.

Looking to the future

I am feeling very confident about this cycle. We will not have timing issues or medical issues to deal with (God-willing), and this won't be a third Hail-Mary pass. Everything will work out perfectly.

These past few days have been a bit crazy in our world. It is our state's standardized testing window (which provides it's own stress-not to mention the 20% of kids we have out sick with the Swine Flu), I had 2 late nights of conferences and B had a workshop at work. Add on top of that our Sprout anniversary, Infant Loss Remembrance Day, and the arrival of AF and I was happy to be so busy.

I called my mom on Thursday. She said that at cards (my mom is in a card club that meets once a week) one of her old lady friends came in with a bag. When my mom asked what it was, she said, "Isn't your daughter due in December?" (The lady goes to Florida from October - May) My mom explained what happened and tried to get her to take it back. She said no and told my mom to keep it for when we do get pregnant again. The woman crocheted us a baby blanket! How sweet. It made my mom cry and almost made me cry too. I can't wait to see it.

Today is full of housework, since the house has been neglected while we have been working. When B gets home from work we are going to go see the Hangover at the cheap show with some friends. Should be a pretty mellow evening, just how I like it, especially after a crazy week.

BFN and a Sprout-a-versary

Welp, we are not celebrating a BFP.

We are however celebrating CD1, which means we are about 2 weeks away from our next TWW.

Our time will come, I just know it.

On a side note, today marks 4 months from when little Sprout became an angel.

I lit a couple of candles in the living room to mark the occasion, since J and I will both be working long days tomorrow and won't be able to participate in the Day of Remembrance for Infant and Pregnancy Loss.

The candles are also lit for you - you know who you are. We are all in this together.

Still Negative

No double line this morning.
I'm 14DPO. I've never gone this far without blood or a positive test.
I am thinking it could be three things:
1. I am pregnant, it's just not showing up on the test yet.
2. I am not pregnant, but AF has not arrived yet.
3. I got my ovulation date wrong, so I am not really 14DPO. (If this is the case, because we did only one insem this cycle, the chance of me being pregnant is veryveryslim.)

Last month I had the positive test, but no pregnancy, maybe this month I won't have the positive, but end up with a baby...wouldn't that be marvelous?

Oh and I took my temp this morning just to see if it would be in the 97's (a sure sign AF is on her way) and it was 98.0. Limbo land. Great.

I'm trying to stay positive...

Couldn't wait

So I tested.
No second line.
Perhaps we will test again tomorrow.

Still haven't tested..

11DPO.
This is the longest we have ever gone without testing.
We are holding out until Tuesday (14DPO)
I have almost every single pregnancy symptom imaginable.
My brain says, "it's impossible," but my heart says, "maybe." B says, "of course."

7DPO

It's been hard not to temp in the morning. I have stuck the thermometer in my mouth a couple random times...then I remembered why I stopped...because it drives me crazy.
I began having back problems on Sunday again, and was basically incapacitated for 12 hours. I was better yesterday, just extremely tired and very nauseous in the morning.
Today I start physical therapy.
I've also had lots of watery CM...so I really have no idea what is going on.
I have also been exxxxxxxxxxxxxtremely fe-motional. I can cry at the drop of a hat.
I feel in my gut that this cycle is a bust, but I am open and receptive to being utterly surprised.
If blood doesn't arrive, we will test a week from today.